Why. Why do I feel like this. I have this empty alone feeling. Ya im woth my family but I still feel alone. I feel like noones there. I feel noone cares. Everything went wrong today. It was all going great then I fucked it all up. I shouldof said yes. but I have too much self respect. Your only wanting me for your sexual pleasure. You deny it. But I know its the truth. I know thats all you want.. How did I get myself so far into this. I shouldnt of kept replying. I should said stop once the conversation turned sexual. Whats wrong with me? Am I not good enough to be a girlfriend? Every guy I talk to just wants me as a fuck buddy. I guess I wont ever be good enough to actualy have a boyfriend :/
I dont know what to do anymore. Im so lost. So confused. So hurt. So tired. Tired of all this. I just need someone there. Someone who can not ask questions cause they already know the answer. Someone who can know im upset and makes the night great. Someone who can make me forget the pain ive been through. Someone. A friend..
UGH ! What the fucking fuck. You KNOW how pissed.off I am at you. You know how I will NEVER be able to forgive you. You kbow that you hurt me WAY worse than what I just now fucking did. Oh I was crying cause I was worried about you and my godmom was concerned amd read your text. Your the one whose telling people its not her fault her boyfriend grew up with your stepdad he asked to make sure nothong BAD happened to them! And then you tell me you never want to see MY face again. BULL FUCKING SHIT. if you wamna play that game I couldof not been there for you years ago! I couldof dropped you as soon as you did what you did to me. But I FORGAVE you. And OME FUCKING MISTAKE I MAKE your DONE with me. FUCK YOU. . UGHHHHHHHHH
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